Thinking.
So it’s been a really weird few weeks. And like all weird times in my life, I inevitably find myself nursing a beer at an empty bike stop. Thinking.
I recently came across Ke$ha’s song ‘Rainbow’
not sure why that feels important to tell you all right now, but i do. i mean i listened to it on repeat for the entirety of my commute this morning.
anyways. i’m not sure what the fuck i’m doing. my head is single mindedly fixated on one boy, while i have been spending time with another to help me forget that that will never be. i feel like i’m using him. it’s kind of awful, and just very well might be the worst thing i have done to a human being my entire adult life. ?
i’m gonna go pond sand now.