Thoughts 10/26/22

I feel like no one listened to me as a kid. Unless I was so frustrated that I would lash out to be heard. Why can’t I be assertive without first getting to the point that I’m angry?


Why do I insist on making this work. Why do I keep trying. What is the root. – I’m so afraid of loosing him, it’s like I’ll take whatever I can get, even if it makes me miserable – I get so excited when I run into you, you look right through me. When you…

Thoughts on muyeosu

I haven’t been honest with myself for a very long time. I’ve lost sight of myself. And it’s affected who I am, the decisions I’ve made, and informed the person I’ve become. I’m not okay with this. Dustyn, I love you. I’ve loved you since the day we met. But you’ll never feel the same…

I don’t need you to love me back, that’s not the way love works.