Why won’t you talk to me?
I know I’m just some dude. I know you own me literally nothing. But I want you know that I’m not done trying to ‘figure something out’, as you put it.
I don’t know why you keep pushing me away. I don’t know why you won’t talk to me. I’ve always felt like there was something between us. I don’t know what, I don’t really care what. But I’ve been trying so hard to figure it out, What it looks like, what it feels like. All the while trying to respect your boundaries. But you just always want to ignore it and only want to run into me and take it from there.
I’ve tried to be a lover, and keep you close. You said no.
I’ve tried to be a friend. But every time I showed interest in anything you were doing, it’s like you strain not to invite me along.
I’ve hit you up to just fuck, no dice.
I’ve asked for a drink, nothing.
Maybe I’m just dense and you’ve always just wanted me to go away.
But then why even talk to me?
Why go home with me?
Why fuck me?
The other day I even asked you what you wanted, your response was to meet guys together, have a good time with them. I said it then, I’ll say it again, I’m down. But then that would mean making plans on occasion. That would mean more than “I’m texting so you can’t say I don’t” it would mean showing the same interest you show when we run into each other, when we don’t.
Dustyn, I can’t do this this way anymore. My heart can’t take it.
But like I said, I’m still down to figure this out, or, if your done, walk away.
I just need you to talk to me.